It's so much fun seeing my daughter get older, smarter, sweeter. Seeing her learn is the best feeling. Hearing her saying I love you. I love seeing her eyes light up with her gifts, eatting her cake and playing with her gifts. She's my everything.
But with every holiday I start getting sad because I'm scared it could be my last holiday with my kids. I can't imagine life without my kids. When I found out I was pregnant with Maddie, as young as I was I decided I wanted to keep her. When I had her I ran out and got a job, finished highschool with straight A's and tried to make myself better for my daughter. When I had my son, I wanted to be a stay at home mom. Having two children really shows you how much fun it is to be a parent. Seeing your children grow together and grow so attached. It makes your heart melt.
When I gave birth to Brayden, Madison was like a little mama. She loved being a big sister, wanted to show her baby brother how to do things. Though he was to little, she tried. Sean wasn't too sure on a baby so he didn't really go near Brayden. But Madison wanted to help anyway she could.
When I think that I might actually lose my kids it kills me. It feels like my heart is being ripped out. Without my kids I would feel empty. They are my everything. They are what make me try harder as a parent and person! They helped me grieve over Brayden. Having them with me made me feel so much better.
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